Here I Stand: The Invisible Man.

Here I stand, hollow and transparent. . A process inherent of neglect from my DamN parents. . One left because of the other, and with the other being my mother, I can completely understand now why the separation had been done. . And once the other, meaning mother, start realizing I was calling another woman Momma, then came the drama, cause over years and years of gaining siblings without my mother being a Momma. . I had a couple different families on a couple different corners all together that gave me a few different Mommas. . Anyways jealousy kicks in but its not in the form of "I wanna fit in" but in forms of "you can just get out, if they love you like you love them they'll lend you their couch". . At first I was just "Ouch" but then I thought about it again. . To some i'm more family than A friend so i'll always have a place to sleep no matter how the story ends. . Now lets take our focus further in to where my hollow heart lies and my sorrow never dies. .Do you know the feeling in children when they don't even feel adequate comfort to tell their mother of any certain, sudden discomfort. . Or any feeling for that matter. . Well thats my life on a plastic platter. . Feelings of abandonment, acting out for punishment, just wanted some acknowledgement. It all seemed to never really matter. . Nothing positive. Just negative chatter. . Even stooping as low as to tell an former classmate nothing bout my worst when I was at my lowest. .She's the main reason I don't belive "I promise" so If i've made one to you and broke it I apologize, I promise. . Speaking of that you don't wanna hear how bad my prom was. . How sad my Mom was cause of how Mad her son was. .I guess that's what the feeling of guilt does. . Most people have a trust issue. .I unsubscribed a long time ago. Tired of reading all the same ads & articles. Promising me the same Shit they've been promising you, whew. . Now that you know partly why I am the way I am. .now matter how strong I stand. . Here I still Stand: The Invisible Man.

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I can see you. . I can smell your fragrance. . I can enjoy the sound of your voice. . So really. .I can behold your beauty but I can't hold you. . . Maybe I should just come to my senses because you got my mental going haywire and a hold on 3 out of 5 of my senses. . Its a shame I can't make you my misses. . Cause I'd have a hold on at least 1 out of 5 of your senses with just one taste my kisses. . So close yet so far away, how can one be so far yet get closer by the day. . I got my hopes up so high that they're bound to fly away so i'll keep it on a kite string until the way I feel fades away

The Process Continues...

So I was thinking. . Maybe we can get aquainted. Start out with conversation and graduate to penetration. . Of the mind. Cause its times when we only scratch the surface & try to build something without first laying a foundation, but when the structure falls in devastation. We wanna blame it on each other instead of looking in the mirror. . So if its ok with you, lets avoid that situation. I wanna build something steady, but only when WE'RE ready. I learned from trail and error. . But one can't dwell on their trails forever. So personally. . I think its now or never. Lets make it happen. Correction. Just let it happen, Life's a Trip, God's the captain, We just hitched a ride. I'm kinda sorta thinking it'll be smoother with you by my side. Ha. Now i'm running lines, but they're filled with truths. Don't want to bank on word? Then i'll show you. Trust in what I do, & then what I say.
You can't control time nor you heart's mind. Love can come with quickness & stop on a dime!

The Zone

Now usually "in The zone" is where I wanna be. I mean, the Zone is obviously where it at! For example 9 times out of 10 when you're in the Red Zone you score, even then you've made it to the End Zone. Yay! Touchdown. . Hmph. Now it's one Zone that everybody, all shapes, sizes, sexes, and skintones have found themselves stuck in. . Drumroll please. . THE FRIENDZONE! DamN now that has to be Mentally and Emotionally the worst place to be. BFF doesn't compare to BF&GF. . At all, but go hand in hand, what a bittersweet contradiction. A conflict of interest where interest is the conflict. One party wants more and the other has not a lick! But really, how much sense does this make? " We're just too good of friends to ever go on a date! I mean my heart would just break if our friendship was ever at stake"I guess i'm the only one that feels that risk is one we could take. Don't think i'm being insensitive until you hear my take. To any type of relationship. . Friends has to be the first step you make, if you're not a friend to your lover then that love won't make. . It! Well they say it's to each own. . And DamN that Zone got me in my zone, thoughts on top of thoughts free falling from my dome. now I wonder if I should let my friend read this when I done?

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All we have are the good morning text and the late night talks. . How I long for a goodbye kiss and the mid-day walks. . Hours of conversation don't begin to compare to just seconds in your presence. .What I wouldn't do for a session of caressing And I love all the pictures I receive that timeline your day but just one photograph of us would be something I could cherish for the rest of my days. . When I say I miss you, I do miss you. . But can I really miss you if I'm never really with you? Words can only do so much but You can read my actions like a scripture. . If I only had one wish I'd have here in a instance, but until then I guess. . I'll just love you from a Distance

MY P.S.A (PERSONAL SITUATION ANALYZED)

So I guess "You are what you eat!" applies more to life than we think. . If you are fed lies are your life then most likely your going to live a life of lies. . So with us living in a generation of broken homes. . Bad father figures. . Etc. Wouldn't that making it harder on the males to actually be a "Man"? I've learn from my life experiences that can't let the factors in life that i have no control over have control over my life. . I learned it late in the game but a 4th quarter comeback is better than no comeback at all. . I've come to realize also that a man is going to be a man. . His own man yet the man his environment molded him to be. . Friend of mine called me on my Shit. . I've said it plenty times but never thought about if I was practicing what I’d been preaching. . "You attract what you present" . . I have made many statements "complaining" about the ways and the thought pattern of a woman. . When I should have checked myself on the same things i spoke on

So Now I guess if I looked passed the ass I would see the class and everything I every wanted... needed to make things last.. eyes so cute but is her mind acute.. Sharp, intelligent, and quick with wits.. or is she just a sexy slim with nice tits.. so yes I have overlooked the good willed one for the good looking one.. Who hasn't? It’s just a mistake made and a lesson learned.. Respect, trust, and love is earned.. so I need to be.. and I am prepared to put in work & not try to work my way into her skirt..
I was told that I’m just like other guys.. I simply reply not I; don't take my word for it. . let my actions show for me. So you can see just what I’m all about.. so the question I ask is this.. How is my presentation?. . Does it keep your attention?.. What does my first impression say to you? Is it lasting.. or are you wondering how long is this going to last...I can only be the BEST MAN I know how to be.. although there is always room for improvement.. Now I must ask myself….. If nobody notices my problems will they ever be solved??

PSA

So. . Yeah i've just come to the conclusion that all the good women are gone. . Don't ever leave home. . Or maybe just dumb. .
She'll ask for something different but when different appears she flat foot overlooks it based on the thoughts of her friends. .
Although its her happiness not theirs in the end, and she just ends up all alone back with her friends in the end. .
When will the trend of this end. . We lookin for the Real Women. .Yall yellin drought of Real Men. If you search google for a "NIGGA" thats the result you recieve so apply that search bar to life and look for "The man that i need" or "The man just for me". .
But you must redefine ya self before the search can proceed. . You attract what you present. So be Lady like please. .Cross ya legs at ya knees. Make a Man put in work. . Nobody wants it wit ease. . Cause if it was easy for me, then it was easy for him. .
Good Women heed what i'm sayin, cause you know its the truth. .
You say you lookin for love but you only lookin in coops. . Or niggas Ralph Laurened out from the hat to the boots. . Love is far materialistic. . Come on we gotta be realistic. . Money's the root of all evil so you loving the Devil in Ed Hardy. . Don't get me wrong i never said We Good Men couldn't Swagg out but don't just wanna be wit a dude because he pop his trunk pullin bags out. .
The Nice Guy's always last out because he ain cursin you women out. . Don't mind takin yo ass out, show you a good time . . You want somebody raisein they hand up. . Destroyin yo fuckin mind. . You know "don't give yo heart to the one that actually wants to spend quality time". . I could speak on this all day but it would be a waste of God Given time. .
Just call me when you want some real. . Nah just keep ya number, i'll just give you mine