Here I Stand: The Invisible Man.

Here I stand, hollow and transparent. . A process inherent of neglect from my DamN parents. . One left because of the other, and with the other being my mother, I can completely understand now why the separation had been done. . And once the other, meaning mother, start realizing I was calling another woman Momma, then came the drama, cause over years and years of gaining siblings without my mother being a Momma. . I had a couple different families on a couple different corners all together that gave me a few different Mommas. . Anyways jealousy kicks in but its not in the form of "I wanna fit in" but in forms of "you can just get out, if they love you like you love them they'll lend you their couch". . At first I was just "Ouch" but then I thought about it again. . To some i'm more family than A friend so i'll always have a place to sleep no matter how the story ends. . Now lets take our focus further in to where my hollow heart lies and my sorrow never dies. .Do you know the feeling in children when they don't even feel adequate comfort to tell their mother of any certain, sudden discomfort. . Or any feeling for that matter. . Well thats my life on a plastic platter. . Feelings of abandonment, acting out for punishment, just wanted some acknowledgement. It all seemed to never really matter. . Nothing positive. Just negative chatter. . Even stooping as low as to tell an former classmate nothing bout my worst when I was at my lowest. .She's the main reason I don't belive "I promise" so If i've made one to you and broke it I apologize, I promise. . Speaking of that you don't wanna hear how bad my prom was. . How sad my Mom was cause of how Mad her son was. .I guess that's what the feeling of guilt does. . Most people have a trust issue. .I unsubscribed a long time ago. Tired of reading all the same ads & articles. Promising me the same Shit they've been promising you, whew. . Now that you know partly why I am the way I am. .now matter how strong I stand. . Here I still Stand: The Invisible Man.