Mind Stimulation 2

Now that you had time to catch ya breath and gave your body much needed rest. . Its back to the autenuary although pleasure related results may vary no additives or enhancers are necessary. .cause as the sunsets the moon shall arise to give the OK for the stars to light up the skies. .on Orion's belt we'll glide like a roller coaster ride. Drinks at the Big dipper. .dinner at the little. Now it back to earth to view the wonders of the world. . Or would you rather do it the milky way and enjoy the highest view of our world, start gazing on the moon or a ice skate date on Pluto. . .our love is in the stars so i owe my heart to astronomy. . We have our ups and downs like the economy but there's no crashing from this altitude. . We're headed for forever the era with no longitude or latitude. .turned on by ya attitude so it hard to stay mad at you. . Magnetic the way i connect to you, no blood but oh the way i relate to you. . I try to find my way back any time that I'm away from you. . I'll ask god to make it rain for you just so the rainbow can appear just for you sometimes i think earth isn't made for you cause a halo and wings would be a far better fit for you. . relax ya mind . .and body too cause that's the end of round 2

Mind stimulation 1

Let me take you to a better place outside the city beyond the states. . smile on your face is all it takes to let me know we're at the right destina-tion. . from day one. . i been on. . a mission to take you from happiness to Ecstasy. . With out a ticket or a key. . Lay wit me not sexually, come fly with me, Mentally, from Terra fir ma to the galaxy among the stars, no gravity. . Full speed ahead through the sphere of stratus we'll have lunch on the rings of Saturn. . These modern niggas want that futuristic love, but I'm so ahead of my time I'm trying to love like the ones who raised the ones who raised us. . Together we shine so bright the sun couldn't RAYs up against us didn't like the competition so he just didn't raise up. . So we go outside mid day just the see the upset sun set. . I'm not done yet, it's time for round 2 of this mind sex but we'll just lay here for a minute .. I'll give you time to catch breath

Stress

Lately i been thinkin, contaplating about a situation far more greater than 101 is to 70. My stress on me weights heavily all i can say is god must be testing me. This must be His attempt to make me stronger to conquer all the dreams that my heart truely hungers, i wonder what it is with me i can't seem to function properly unless attention's souly on me. & i can never say my past is the past because it presently dwells like dark clouds over my future; my patience is slowly breaking because these constant wrong paths that I've been taking led me to my my point of breaking.& the pressure of a world oh so Shity & Heartless like a constipated KanYe on the toilet takes my blood pressure & just boils it until the point that i can't store it, on the inside anymore. I gotta let it pour out of the inkwell into words so full of pain & sorrow on to the page that will soon swell up& cry tears of rage. With age supposedly comes wisdom but what happens when ever one around you just bleeds dumb?

Loves Voyage

This search got me looking at all kind of maps Never took this route before I wonder where this road will goWill it take me where I want to go? Where is it that I want to be...? In whichever chamber it is that makes her heart beat for me Only ladies in the streets for me, well sometimes I might need a freak. But well keep that between the sheets I need someone with deeper values than swimming pool coupons I need someone with goals set plus back up plans wit safety nets My woman got to demand her respect, and keep these dumb hoes. In line. in check and if she makes her own money we can share my check insert here a quote form one of the best...a woman who asks for nothing can have it all but the more request the less you get notice I’m naming mental strengths... the physicals a whole other list cause relationships aren’t based on chest so I had to get this off of mine...not rushing love but it’s about that that time that I settle down and make up my mind but who knows just what the future holds or when I have that one to holdI need someone for when nights get cold...call her up when I can’t sleep just to reassure she’s just for me...I wonder if i'm over asking. . should I sit back and let it happen...well right I have no other choice... But if I didn’t write this my heart wouldn’t have a voice

As the tear.. drops from my face to this pageMy empty heart swiftly.. thickens with rage Encaged in a feeling of loneliness and not being wantedTaunted by any happy by passer Then I ask her how I can make it betterShe replies: no answerA cancer ..of sadness A wall built ..from madness I’m glad this is hidden Well.. it’s not so bad when it’s written These feelings I’m getting Are building Nothing is ridding Inside the pain is just killingMe I’m thru But No matter to you To you I’m a figment A waste of a couple pigmentsTo you nothing I say Has mattered per sayBut I’m okWith the knowledge That I’ll be banished To the back of your mind So..all I can say is....goodbye till next time

Disrespect

So just how disrespectful can a man be?Calling women out their name use words that start wit BBut, dun worry that ain't meNo it is in my VocabularyBut i'm starting to believe that’s what women want to seecause never will I check youdisrespect youor raise my hand like ima deck youbut my worlds is still empty without a woman 2 call my girlI’d never treat you like a girl more like a Queen no in betweenbut I guess you would know the feel of royalty until you found yourself a KingIt ain’t a thug in my blood nor is there any Sissy in my systemBut i’m quick give my lady a hug and I’ll kiss her wit the quicknessand if she gone for too long ima miss her for a minutebut I know she coming home, so I come back to my sensesBut you looking for a nigga that’s gone slap you on your assbefore he gets ya name or number, never treats ya like ya got classI need a girl wit class and loving that'll lastI'm sick meeting pretty girls, with minds made out of glassmeaning I can predict her every thoughtshe gone lie until she's caught, and even then she wont stopI put my system up cause i’m tired of the gamesWent and bought a new clock, cause the times have changedI’m just looking for a WIFEY, cause the WIFE wears the ringAnd if you looking for a MAN, quit overlooking ME

Paths

I know i'm the main one that talks about the wrong paths that have been taking but who what or where would i be if i hadn't have choosen those paths to be taken? Mistakes i've made them. . reprocations i'm afraid of them. . But consequences yeah i faced a few more than any other dude that didn't do what the others do or did as a kid i wasn't taught to chase any and everything that had a pussy and talked. I always thought it was a part of life to be nice but i've learn that wasn't the case in this world. . to have a place with a girl your attitude has to be fuck the world but the problem is the main objective of any male with that frame of mind is to fuck that girl and make a steady foundation in her life then with out thought just fuck up her world then its on to the next now i guess your a man. . Gon flex. But the lessons in my book of text taught me to court. .carefully select. .and respect her every decision even if she rejects. .Some say the nice guy is dead but he lives through me. . And i'm not a old head wit a curl and gold teeth. .ima young cat fresh braids and nice kicks. . And i know i'm the main one that talks about the wrong paths that have been takin but i'm glad that paths i took. . made me who and i am. . And i'm happy where i am in life. . . .To be continued!

Love Lock-Up

"The chase is on; this will be our biggest catch" thats what I heard the voice say over the dispatch runnin and cuttin corners tryin to avoid the fuzz their main objective was to keep me from that very person that made my heart buzz. If this is how it was going to end then i had to see her. .hear her. .be with her one at least once again. But then as soon as i thought i had found the perfect hiding place. I was surprised but a light in my face . . "A fugitive on the loose,arrested today for lovin his boo" now how does that sound as the title of the front page story. . And of course there was a photographer there to catch me and all my loverboy glory. They got me so now its off to the station; its time i faced it. First i take my mug shot wit my name height and weight at the top they say "Damn! that's a big boy, no wonder he's got such a big heart" . .but do they stop nope the abuse continues. i get looks in all variations on my way to interigation just heighten my frustration.! Now here i am in this room waitin. . They bring me in some to snack on. . A blt. . With brown lettuce and one strip of bacon. . I wonder if they know how mad they're make me tryin to lock me up for showing L-O-V-E. . And expressin my feelings. . Shit they'd really wanna lock me up if they knew i was FEELING like blowing up this building. . Now i'm chillin with my stress level at the ceil. . They asking me stupid questions. Each one gettin more and more revealing. . But me being me i keep all my answered sealed in. .and politely said "if you gon lock me up. . Then do it why wait. .Just put me in the hole. Cause I'm feeling soletaire. . I only want to breath solo air. . You've separated me and my love so why share. I don't even want a visitor. .unless its her. So If the crime is love then i'm guilty. Just know if she sees me i'm free. . Cause for my heart she has the key!" locked up for love in the 3rd degree. . The gavel dropped and Life was the sentence givin to me.

Wantsz

Sometimes i wonder. .Do you want me? & if so How do you want me?& what is it that you want me to do for you. .to you! Would you want me to pull you close to me just to keep you by my side like a holster be & whisper in your ear "hopefully me & you together forever is not what its supposed to be but what its gonna be" & now i'm wondering what the futures gonna bring. Would you want a ring. Or some other thing to symbolize the love that we share & all the great things that it means. . I mean if thats not what you want then thats cool with me as long as you want it to be you & me. Because you, to me, are a gift indeed & your whole mind body & soul, i'll be damned, if it doesn't entrige. Out of my league was my first thought but with time realized that we're in the exact some ball park just in different sections watchin the same game through real eyes then I realize that some women deserve real guys. But wit all that a side it all comes down to what she wants. So now i just gotta hope that its me she wants

Deep Frozen Thoughtz

A cold heart can leave the deepest scars on any surface. At any point and time that you cross me i curse you and at the point and time it was worth it. But its hurtin to know that to you it me thats doin all the hurtin. Lately loneliness is the only girl i been flirtin wit. . I see that look in ya eye ya turn ya head if i even think a kiss yeah i screwed up i'd need the whole black and decker company just to fix the Shit i'm sleepin by myself tonight i know its my bed and i made the Shit but the longer i'm alone the colder my heart gets i'm tryin the thaw the Shit but if i had of been a man at first i wouldn't be caught in this trap. It was the rap that i Spit to get next to a chick that got that chick that's always next to me vexed at me. . It went from our destiny was ecstasy to your extinct like a rex to me. . Now i'm the one without. . askin the lord to take this pain from me and J. Holiday how do i kill this pimp in me. . Cause the time with out her already took the best in me and the only way to get her back is to get rid of the rest of me. . That the worst in me. . Just thinkin bout her makes my heart melt like i'm oven and theses a roast in me. So now hopefully i can turn on the defrost in me cause anymore time who know's how lost i'll be. . *TBC*

Random Thoughtz

Its time to release a little frustration. . Do some mental cleansing thru the art of Poetik Meditation. .giving you a look thru the lenses of my Cranium. . Showing you what makes my heart colder than Steel and mind stronger than Titanium. . Stuck in the Trenches of decisions. . Collisions between me and the woman i call mother. . Confused at the way she pushes me out but at the same time smothers. . Trying to uncover the mind frame of being a lover of just one other has proven to be harder and harder as the days grow longer. . Lifetime supply of steroids yeah time makes me stronger. .freedom from the current and acceptance into something different is what i hunger. .for. . Me myself and I . . With neither one of those being call a "normal guy". . Rated and label by the Fiction of a Fable. .breed to think i have the live up to the standards of a hater. .but grew to know that the focus on myself over others should be greater. .Cater to Me and not the wants of another. . Confession I Love her. . But we shall like that her remain name less. . Just know she's the only her that the ability to tame this. . Internal Beast on the rise like yeast. .at least i know where i my problems live . So I'll know the exactly area where i can solve them is. .I won't father kids as long as my father lives. .cause i don't wanna expose then to anything that the father of their father did. . Can't compare my life to Jesus's but some i feel so sperm donor less. . But at least his father was there for all eternally . .the struggles inner burning me. .life is like a lottery. . God rolled the dice of life with me. . Trick dice to top the irony. .so many wrinkles in my path not even grandma could iron me. . Speaking of that lady i miss her with every part of me. . Cause she's the reason that all those parts of me are why you call me, me. .to be continued!

Not so Special Delivery

Fuck my FedEX cause right now i'm just FedUP/ she rushed my delivery the order got messed up/ she asked if i delivered to a different location like the shippin info was wrong. . .I swear that i didn't/ but when i knocked at her door its like nobody was home/ i left that client alone, her delivery man is now gone/ but i keep my heart in a package in the truck, who wants the come and pick it up